School had started for 2 weeks already,and this week is e 3rd week..its so damn fast~! Maybe bcoz e 1st 2 weeks were still e honeymoon period and i was also busy with e wake,so time seems to pass unusually fast..anw,i guess e post-funeral issues were more or less settled..somehow i really dun like settling this kind of issues,coz u will inevitably see e ugly side of humans..of coz nt tt dramatic like those in dramas la,but sometimes even minor and harmless actions can make e pple ard them feel disgusted..haiz..ok..shall not continue with it..
Hmmm..I realised my 1st post of e new yr was actually my grandma's death..sounds quite saddening,but yea,it's over and i feel ok already..and thanx everyone for e concern..=)
Anw,i guess before tt,i was too busy enjoying my last week of hols before e sch starts,so din hav e time to update my blog..haha..oh,and i suddenly rmb i said i wanted to update abt my HK trip!but dragged until now i oso lazy to recall le..maybe to summarize,it's damn fun~! and i liked e very cooling weather..if u wanna know where i went,can go my fb to see e pics..e only bad thing was tt coz we went during public hol cum weekend period,there would always be crowds and queues everywhere we go~! and seriously,im very proud of myself for doing all e itineraries~! of coz with e help of xuemei and michael..but still,i did all e planning by myself..it's really hard work,but it's fun and satisfying~! hope i can go either bkk,taiwan or even japan next..BUT no $$$~! =(
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Recently,i hurt 1 of my close frens quite badly(i guess)..if u r reading my blog,i hope u understand me..
I only read ur blog recently,den i know how much my words hurt u so deeply..i do admit tt my tone was rather rude on tt day..i guess my tiredness jux made me more easily frustrated,and nt able to think and act appropriately,but for wat i did and said,i do hav my own explanations for tt..i wanted to explain to u,but i realised maybe explanations will only further complicate matters,and i dun wan to bring this up again..wat i can only say is tt our thinkings towards certain things are quite diff...anw wat's done cannot be undone..im really sorry my fren..i still hope our friendship is nt affected badly bcoz of tt..
Thursday, January 21, 2010
12:27 AM Y
Post title : Goodbye grandma..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Jux last wednesday, my grandma passed away peacefully at home..i still rmb at 6am in e morning my house phone kept ringing a few times and i hear my sis kept picking up e phone and talking..tt time i was only half awake so i din really catch wat my sis was talking abt,so i went back to sleep..a few hrs later i woke up,and i saw e msg regarding this bad news..at tt moment,i was alone at home,and i cried..maybe e news was too sudden for me to accept at tt time..but after awhile,seriously thinking abt it,it's nt exactly a bad thing..coz she had been bedridden for ard 8 years,it's really painful to see her getting thinner and thinner as time went by..now it's actually a relief for her coz she dun hav to be so xin ku anymore..
My grandma(and my grandpa as well,but he passed away already) and I(or rather my siblings too) were very close when we were still kids..talking abt her,my childhood memories were back again..i still rmb:
-how she hold my hand and carried my bag when fetching me back home from kindergarden -how she made me plump by always giving half of her share of food to me,afraid tt i wun hav enough to eat,and hence helping me to create a record of eating 10 chwee kuehs in 1 meal at tt small age,and till now every single relative still rmb -how she kept chasing and ranting at me when i monkey up and down e playground near my house -how she babysit and took care of us when our parents were out for wedding dinner till late,and how we disturbed her during lights out when she was trying to catch some sleep before they came home -how she(and my grandpa and uncle) brought us to orchard road late at night in our pyjamas to see e lightings and decors
I really wanna thank my grandma for giving me such wonderful childhood memories..I really miss her and really missed those days..but in a way,i felt quite glad for her,not only bcoz she was finally relieved from pain,but also bcoz she can finally reunite with grandpa..
My grandparents were a very loving couple.. everywhere they go,no matter is it crossing e road,gg for breakfast,taking a stroll or going for a trip, my grandpa would always hold my grandma's hand,even till old age.. when my grandma,who was hard of hearing,cant hear clearly to wat pple are saying,my grandpa would be e 1st to be beside her and shout in her ears.. when she got a stroke,he took good care of her when it's jux e 2 of them plus 1 of my uncles living in 1 roof.. when he knew his time was almost up,he was sad tt he got to leave before my grandma and could no longer tk care of her,he asked his children to promise to take very good care of her no matter wat happens.. Though we din tell grandma tt grandpa passed away coz we din wan to agitate her and at tt time she was senile already,she still somehow knew we were lying to her when she asked for him.. I heard from my aunt,every year days before and after grandpa's death anniversary,she would either cry or keep talking to herself,as if talking to someone else..we believed she was trying to talk to grandpa.. Really envy them..envy their longlasting love till their last breath..
Anw,now we were all glad tt they can finally reunite at a place where we all would eventually go one day..
Grandma,really thanks for taking good care of us..though e mischevious us liked to bully u sometimes,no matter wat,u are really a wonderful grandma..Love you..
Rest in peace grandma..
A song i wanna dedicate to my grandparents:
The WitnessY
KAI YAN there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again. I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
Nobody's ever perfect.
I can't control the way i am,but i can control the way i live my life.
So welcome to my blog...=)
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She pleadedY
-My 3-4 yrs in NUS will be a smooth-sailing yet exciting one.. -Graduate with a Bachelor degree with merit.. -Have more gatherings pls~! -To be able to go to Anfield~! -To meet Steven Gerrard in real person/have his autograph~ -To find my prince charming whom i can spend my life with.. -To shop shop and shop for more clothes and shoes~! -Perm my hair~! -See snow for at least once.. -Go for Lasik Surgery -Wish everyone to be happy and safe always~!
